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Asshole
03:11
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All I want is for you to act like the person I always wanted you to
what an asshole thing to say.
How many times have been so angry over my own insecurities
I see that I'm the one to blame
The time on the clock counts down
I thought you would have been around by now
So where are you? I come to find out,
you were home the whole time I was lost in my mind
Am I losing my mind?
I get better
I get better every day
better but never all the way better and that's ok, that's ok
The dog barks and it tears me apart
I'm all kinds of misdirected in the sunset of a tough summer
I'm waiting around
I'm hoping to make a turnaround play
and it comes on slowly, so slowly, but it's ok
I get better
I get better every day
better but never all the way better and that's ok, that's ok
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Headache / Headcase
02:21
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Pin push into me
I think I'm bleeding somewhere
I'm a headache / I'm a headcase
I'm living in fear
I'm picking up tears, thank christ
I'm doing too much again
stretching, snap, oh sad - too thin
Jerry's eye is falling out
the kids all want the show to start
I try to give them what they need
But when it isn't left in me
you come by and you left me up
even if you're too tired, almost too tired to give up because
that is love.
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Healing
02:56
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The Wednesday rain pushes the loose leaves down the drain
at our worst there's solace in the fact nothing stays the same
I was gone, so far gone, so far out there gone away
now I'm back, we're bouncing back, starting to believe again
Starting to feel a healing - might be just a feeling
So we'll have to wait and see
I guess that's the way it's always gonna be
just minutes on a clock up on the wall that we'll both watch
I'm waiting for your hand to creep
I'll be right there within your reach
we're back, we're bouncing back, starting to believe again
Starting to feel a healing - might be just a feeling
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4. |
Empty Head
02:16
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I - I don't feel, good today
I want to change everything
But there's no way
so I just breathe heavier
I lean heavier & I feel heavier
I don't feel good today
a pain right here in my chest today
what accounts for when it goes away
or when it's here to steer the wheel
No explanation makes me feel weird
cancel all my plans I'm going to bed
cancel all my dreams I'm emptying my head
I don't feel good today even though I wish I did
I wish I did.
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5. |
DrAppt
02:18
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I've been planning for this
I should've been planning for that
crossing WNY and then I'm crossing right back
There's one with a doctors degree
one with a lion's jaw
one with a lot to think about
and one with nothing to say
they give me the magnet scan
they give me the needle six different ways
they act like they know what they're doing
but really who knows?
You say you want to know how my day was
but nothing's turned out
now there's only this evening
sicken myself with self doubt
so I climb into bed, I curl into your spread
even with everything shaking you are holding me still
how do you do that? I ask and you say
La-La-La
What will be will be
La-La
It's always you and me.
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6. |
Slow
01:55
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To do list, to do list
everyone so proud of my to do list
I write it down and then I cross it off but still
it seems to look the same as when I started and
how does that happen?
I guess that I added and I subtracted at the same time
so everything and nothing got done.
This caffeine is carrying me into overdrive
the dog wants dinner thirty minutes early every night
when will we learn to slow down?
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7. |
CCC
01:55
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Ghost white
I discover another thing to worry about
I turn ghost white
how do people do it putting up with the theft of their time?
It ain't right.
Extra long weekend I'm drowning in the deep end
I'm a dread head anchored in bed
don't even remember how to enjoy my own free time
they punch the time card in my mind
No.
Not just ghost white, but a ghost outlined in white
I aim to fly out of the smoke stack,
visit Joanie on my lunch break
that's what it takes, that's the kind of crazy that it makes
for a man who starts believing in the unreal
Then I return to ghost white
I come to and someone's talking
I just nod and show them out of my office
and then I close the door
Then I sink directly into the floor.
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8. |
Golf Tournament
01:42
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I want out
I don't get what everybody's laughing about
what's so funny now?
If you want to be king and queen
I have nothing but love for you all
but play the game, play the game
without me
Did she really drive herself home?
Did he really touch you that way?
All this sulking around, all this eating the hay
I want out of the parade
So play the game, play the game, without me
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9. |
Dust
02:04
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I can't, I can't keep track
I can't keep on keeping track of everything for you
So you turn, so you turn it around
So you turn it all on me and here I thought I was offering vulnerability?
But I guess not, I guess you didn't see it that way
you see it as a round for the chamber -
you've got someone to sign your letter
I miss, I miss living up, I miss living up to expectations.
I'm trying to hard to heal, heal up come on
it wasn't always this hard now was it?
I'm just worn, I'm worn down
worn down to dust
when the wind comes by
I'll try to hold on but - oh no.
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10. |
Like a Fly
02:37
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Like a fly trapped in a jar
I hit the glass, I don't understand
and like a mule up on the mountainside
the herder ushers me until the rocks let go
and like a dog chewing on her foot
the world goes right by, she sits there window side
and like someone who only plays along
imagining something that isn't really there at all
and like a man, making foolish plans
thinking anything even matters more than love.
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